She's back........

Most people who have never been unemployed for a long period of time will never truly understand the wasteland that your life becomes. Constantly battling depression that gets deeper and deeper as time goes on, fighting off rejection at every turn, serious stress about finances, diminished or disappearing time with friends (both because depression makes you a drag and because of strained finances), etc etc. And of course, the thing people don't mention very often: a disappearing dating life. Because of the other reasons--lack of money, lack of confidence, and lack of feelings of self-worth--you rarely feel like putting yourself out there or that you would be worth anything to anyone else, so your dating life pretty much grinds to a halt.

I have to say, now that I've finally secured a job after much too long, I'm not feelings necessarily celebratory. It's hard to explain, but after going through all the crap I've gone through in the past year, getting back to a normal life doesn't feel like a major accomplishment or anything--it just feels like I'll get to go back to a normal life. Maybe I'll feel like celebrating later, but for now, I'm just relieved to not have to live like a zombie anymore.

Therefore, I'm relieved about all these things--relieved to have a little more financial security, relieved to get back into an apartment and have some independence again, relieved to be able to see my friends more often. But I have to say that I am also very relieved and excited to get back out on the market again--meet all sorts of people, do all sorts of fun activities, go out and let a guy treat me once in a while, and of course, get some decent material for this blog. Stay tuned, folks, this girl's been off the market for a while and wants to make up for some lost time.

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic