I told SanFranMan I didn't want to continue our long-distance flirtations (or whatever you would call it) anymore. The whole thing felt basically like a 3 month prolonged foreplay leading up to something, but when he said he cancelled his trip here to visit, there just didn't seem like much point anymore. It was definitely fun for a while, but it had gotten to the point where I was just even more frustrated, so it was doing more harm than good.
The sad thing to admit is that I really liked the attention. It's been far too long since a guy showed any interest in me at all. It feels good for someone to tell me I'm attractive for a change, as superficial as that is. And since I know how terrible I am at initiating anything with a guy, it may be a long time before I get to hear it again. *sigh*
Yeah, I know I'm waxing melodramatic now. I guess when multiple areas of my life seem to not be going well, it's difficult to be optimistic about this one area.
Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic
I think this was a smart choice, only for your own sanity, knowing that this wouldn't pan out into a substantial relationship. It's perfect fine (not sad) to admit that you liked the attention. It's wonderful to feel wanted, desired!
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