Daydream Believer

This is not really a something-happened post, so much as a what's-on-my-mind post.

So Drunk Santa has been a bit more persistent about bugging me to get together (which hasn't happened yet because I've been out of town for the holidays--patience, young grasshopper).  I'm delighted by this turn.  Maybe after New Years he'll be a little less flighty and actually make something happen.  At this point I'm just really curious to close the loop on that story, if for nothing else than some blog material.  Stay tuned on that one.

Meanwhile, drawing teacher (who will henceforth be known as Teddy Bear, since it's a better name, and I can't help but think of a teddy bear when I think of him because I always want to cuddle him) is on my mind a surprising amount.  By golly, I miss him since my class ended.  I'm not sure what the nature is of my crush, whether I miss the sparkling conversation and want to be closer friends, or if I just really crave someone to cuddle, or if it really is something else (more?).  But obviously I want to spend more time with him.  And it's obvious because when I was in Michigan, a friend pointed out to me how obvious it was that we were flirting with each other on some Facebook posts.  Hrmh.  If it's so obvious to even a complete outsider, why does this guy not ask me out?  I thought guys were more opportunistic than that.  It'll be a couple of weeks before I can go to one of his open studio sessions on Sundays, but when I do go in a couple of weeks, my plan is to take a verrrrrry long time putting my stuff away at the end, so that I'm the last one there with him.  Alone time!  Give him a comfortable risk-free environment.  And see what happens.....

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic

P.S. People keep telling me that my move should be suggesting to Teddy Bear that I model nude for him, or asking him to model nude for me.  That is NOT how I roll for the first date.  For goodness sake, I am not that easy and/or desperate.  Third or fourth date, maybe.....  ;)