Actually, I do have green eyes. But that's not what I'm talking about today.
Remember Spiderman, the guy from my previous job who is kind of dorky and resembles Tobey Maguire in "Spiderman" just a little bit, and I had a teensy bit of a crush on? I found out this morning that he has a girlfriend, who is actually stunningly gorgeous and adorably hot. True, I was only lukewarm interested in him and never made any effort to test those waters beyond just saying hello and offering up a little chit-chat here and there. But something about seeing him off the market makes me sad.
Maybe there's a little bit of me that wonders how such a dorky guy could get such a beautiful girl Maybe there's a little bit of me that thinks maybe I let a good one get away. Maybe there's a little bit of me that is totally jealous and wonders why I still can't find that for myself (well, not a beautiful girl, but you know what I mean). They are all totally childish feelings, and I'm not proud of any of them, but I suspect I'm not the only one who gets these feelings and maybe if I say them out loud we can try to understand them.
I also wonder how sincere people are when they say "I'm happy for you." Think about it. When someone else finds love, really dig down deep. Does that make you really, truly happy? Does someone else's happiness really affect you at all? I'd venture to guess that more often than not, it's just something people say.
Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic
A friend of mine recently got married, all in the course of a 4-month whirlwind courtship from a guy she'd peviously dismissed as "friend material." When she told me she was engaged, I was happy for her. However, even she commented that it's hard for single girls to be truly happy for their engaged. She wasn't directing it at me. She just knew that it can be difficult to revel in someone else's joy when you feel like your own life is lacking. She was very quiet on the social media side about announcing her engagement or wedding.
ReplyDeleteAs for the nerdy guy/beautiful girl combo, I can't tell you how many times I think, "why did he pick HER when he could have someone even better, like me?" I'm also not proud of that thought.
The last guy I dated, I thought I was the ugly half of the pair, he was just so hot! And he thought the exact opposite. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. of course, he lacked inner beauty :)