So I have accepted this thing with SanFranMan for what it is--a fun, meaningless, and uninvolved fling of sorts. But perhaps I was having too much fun? It's been a while now since we've *ahem* chatted, and it's making me slightly anxious. I miss it!
I think there are a few levels to this. On a very basic level, it's fun. I like fun. I want more of it. On a slightly deeper level, it feels really good to feel attractive, and as much as I shouldn't rely on men for validation, I feel unattractive without any attention from the males out there. I just want to feel alive, young and vibrant! And on an ever-so-slightly deeper level, I don't want to be cast aside. Even though this is nothing, and no one signed any contracts, it would be a little disappointing to think that I could be cast aside so easily, if it was the case that he lost interest.
Oy. This was not supposed to be complicated. All right, need to find someone else.
Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic
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