Dear Former Boys (think they are "men")

Dear Former Boys of my Life,

For the New Year you can call me, text me, facebook request me, email me, or snail mail me. Whatever way you can think of getting in touch with me I will not respond. In the past, I have responded.
I did it for kicks and blog material. Now I will not respond.

Most men I have been out with lately we go on one date. I drop them because I'm bored and unentertained by their lack of enthusiasm. I have my reasoning. Unlike most people who will put up with the bullshit of dating and relationships. I do not. I would rather be single and happy than be attached to someone just to have someone.

Today I unfriended my former X's brother. No reason for us to be "friends."
It felt good and was long OVER do!

#LiftingtheLoad

<3 The Disbeliever Disbelieving 24/7

For the New Year!!

Ladies it is so easy to get a guy! Well if it is so easy to obtain one why are you still single? I'll tell you in the following paragraph! Today I was walking down the street. A particular guy was carrying a lot of bottles of alchool down the street. I said to him, "Hey where is the party at?" Him: "You like my hat?" Me: "Yeah it is a nice hat." Him: "Go out on a date with me.." HaHa so funny true story I swear! Also I told this guy I had a man. He said who cares.

For the New Year I'm going to be more of a flirt with men. With guys I find attractive I shy away and find it hard to speak. Imagine if I DIDN'T ACT like that! Confidence is SEXY. Confidence is KEY! Of course I recognize these facts, but I have not been living them. I'm shying away from the hot ones while acttracting the NOT ones! My dating resolution is to talk to the hotties like I talk to the notties.. Be more outgoing with them instead of admiring from the distance. HaHa for people that already know me probably will be laughing. WoW she is already pretty outgoing. How can she build upon it?

It will be done and is possible. I want to obtain a hot ass man that I'd prefer to see with no clothes on over with clothing! Is that too much to ask for?

Where are the hot men at now? So hard to find sigh :(

Where do I go to look?

<3 The Disbeliever Disbelieving 24/7

Daydream Believer

This is not really a something-happened post, so much as a what's-on-my-mind post.

So Drunk Santa has been a bit more persistent about bugging me to get together (which hasn't happened yet because I've been out of town for the holidays--patience, young grasshopper).  I'm delighted by this turn.  Maybe after New Years he'll be a little less flighty and actually make something happen.  At this point I'm just really curious to close the loop on that story, if for nothing else than some blog material.  Stay tuned on that one.

Meanwhile, drawing teacher (who will henceforth be known as Teddy Bear, since it's a better name, and I can't help but think of a teddy bear when I think of him because I always want to cuddle him) is on my mind a surprising amount.  By golly, I miss him since my class ended.  I'm not sure what the nature is of my crush, whether I miss the sparkling conversation and want to be closer friends, or if I just really crave someone to cuddle, or if it really is something else (more?).  But obviously I want to spend more time with him.  And it's obvious because when I was in Michigan, a friend pointed out to me how obvious it was that we were flirting with each other on some Facebook posts.  Hrmh.  If it's so obvious to even a complete outsider, why does this guy not ask me out?  I thought guys were more opportunistic than that.  It'll be a couple of weeks before I can go to one of his open studio sessions on Sundays, but when I do go in a couple of weeks, my plan is to take a verrrrrry long time putting my stuff away at the end, so that I'm the last one there with him.  Alone time!  Give him a comfortable risk-free environment.  And see what happens.....

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic

P.S. People keep telling me that my move should be suggesting to Teddy Bear that I model nude for him, or asking him to model nude for me.  That is NOT how I roll for the first date.  For goodness sake, I am not that easy and/or desperate.  Third or fourth date, maybe.....  ;)

Every time you go out... Make a friend a divorce lawyer

So I just got back from a bar? This guy was venting to me hardcore about how he lost millions of dollars. Lost half a million over some property. I had no idea wtf he was talking about. My friend told him I was a divorce lawyer! Next time I encounter the over 40s type she will be the lawyer. Realist! You have it coming to you! This is a warning! Although I did listen to him and tuned in and out of this convo. Besides the money and figures I learned a very important lesson .A. All the money in the world will not make you happy (I already knew this just had it reinforced) B. Before you get married really realize that you are marrying the family as well. Past problems will surface! They do not go away. This guy's wife was formally into drugs now his kids are messed up. Life is in shambles. Blah blah blah was worth 10 million now worth 2 million.. #richpeopleproblems! Really realize who you are marrying before you marry that person. Single for life!?!?!
His advice is to sign a prenup!

I'm just not responding!!!!

Meanwhile....

I did meet a guy around my age this week too.. Very cute.. Very personable.. Asked if I had a husband.. Before then implied will I ever see you again? He did not ask for my number!!!! Come on!!! I guess next time this happens I have to throw my number at the guy! Come on though have some sense.. I was interested and intrigued.. He was at the store shopping for his 2 year old niece so cute!!!! But really I just want a guy to take that first initiative!!!! He was really cute though and I'm semi kicking myself, but I want a semi aggressive male.. Worst that happens is I say no.... Either way the outcome is guy not getting my number..

Old men!!!

Goooood God please leave me alone.. First it was the one at the start of the week when I was on line buying food. Here is my business card contact me... Yeah thanks ok no way in hello Mr...
Now I go to the gym and one is talking to me telling me his daughter is 26. I told him my age.. His friend and him were both hitting on me so nasty.. His friend is a local track coach in town... Annoying... They flash their money around immediately.. What does your boyfriend do? It took me forever to answer....I said construction .. God forgive me.. I hate lying about having a boyfriend when I don't but damn these guys are my fathers age.. As I leave the pool the guy said to my his friend there goes my perfect girl... Omg I'm your daughters age imagine bringing me home to meet the family come on now!!!! You nasty!!!!!!! Times 3 million!!! I just want peace and quiet!!!
How do you girls deal with old man issues? That is 3 in one week!!! 3 toooo many!!! Not to mention it depresses me!!!!

<3 One grossed out Disbeliever

Loser! Good luck with that one!

Seriously? Does this even need words? He actually might be a guy I would find attractive too if he wasn't high as F**K!!! Grrrrr!!!!

<3 The Disbeliever Disbelieving 24/7

You go and find your teddy and give that bear a great, big, hug

Well, that's it.  Last night was my last drawing class.  I may not see Drawing Teacher again.

Okay, that's a little melodramatic.  If I get a job in the area, I will likely take another class.  And he wants to periodically set up studio time with hired models so that when folks are interested they can get some practice in outside of class, so if I'm around, I would likely go to those.  It's a pretty big "if" that I'll be around, though.  I have no idea where the next month or two will take me.

Our last class was a lot of fun, though.  I brought in some homemade baked goods to share.  We ordered pizza.  Everyone talked and joked through the whole class (which is unusual compared to other classes I've taken--often people are very focused on their work and are quite serious and quiet), one student brought in extra drawing pads to pass out (not sure why he has so many extra, but Merry Christmas to me!).  The teacher said it was probably the most fun class he's ever taught.  He gave me a hug on the way out.  Get that?  He gave ME a hug.  It was so nice.  He is so cuddly.

Ah, it feels like such an innocent school-girl crush.  Especially since it's the teacher.  Is this the end?  Who knows.....

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic

Are you DOWN with the Brown?

I hate it when guys ask me this ?!!! You get NO Response!!
You will get pictures!



He is HOTTTTTT!

So is HE!



Drooling!






Another HOT Brown man!



"How You doing HOT HOT HOT!!!!!" The right mix of HOT!



Ok Neo!

Creepily Hot!




I'll tear your neck off.. Leave me alone I'm NOBODY~ HOT!


Not HOT at all...

<3 The Disbeliever Disbeliving!

Ugh!!! Just ugh!!!!

Him: Text/call me and I'll tell u a secret from wen we were in high school.. It's a good one... (That is in the eye of the beholder!)
Me: ?Secrets?
Him: Yes wen I first met you I thought you were so cute. #no joke
Me: Awww thanks I'm flattered this is not a twitter though! This is texting!
Him: I did have a Twitter, but Ill hav another but ur still attractive I don't want to sound like a creeper haha (The biggest way to sound like a creeper is saying you don't want to sound like one!)
Me: I'm still attractive you're making me sound ancient.
Him: I am 30 LOL and of course you are still attractive!!!

Ugh! Please child keep your distance !!!

<3 Disbeliever Disbelieving 24/7

Drunk Santa update?

I decided to nickname him Drunk Santa based on my last post about how he told me how hungover he was from a Santacon the previous day.

Anyway, Drunk Santa has suggested that I go meet him in his town so he can show me around.  Sounds great.  Now I'm just waiting for him to actually send me an invitation.

While I wait around, the past couple of weeks he's been sending me periodic meaningless messages, like "Hi Skeptic."  or "Hi there, how's it hanging?"  I responded to both, wondering if it would lead to an actual conversation, but it never does.  Perplexed by this lack of initiative on his part, I mentioned it one day to my cousin, who astutely suggested that if he showed me around town, it wouldn't necessarily be a date, so the expected protocols of invitation might not apply.  It's a more ambiguous situation.  Fair point, but it still seems like if he wants to show me around town, he should be the one to suggest the day or send the invitation.  I'm not about to send him a message like, "hey, I'm going to be in your town on Saturday.  Will you show me around?"

So I ask you, Drunk Santa:  What the f---?

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic

*Muah*

Something I've always been fascinated by is the physiology behind kissing.  I think it's because the dentist who worked on my braces had all sorts of pictures on his wall to stare at while he was working, and one of them had a great quote about the importance of the mouth (in terms of communication, nourishment, reproduction, etc.).  Wish I could remember the exact quote.  Anyway, it always made me wonder--the obvious purpose of the mouth is to provide the body with food, a necessary item for survival.  A clear secondary purpose would be for communication.  But if you stop and think about it, reproduction and sex is a bit more mysterious.  The mouth, as an entirely separate entity from the genitals, is not exactly necessary for reproductive purposes.  Yet when you strip things to the bare bones, what is it about connecting with another person's food trap that gets us so aroused and interested in sex?  In fact, a kiss can tell us a lot about how we feel about another person and what the sexual chemistry is.  Sometimes if a kiss is bad, we know that we are no longer interested in pursuing further sexual relations with the other person.  What is it about putting two sets of lips together that is so complicated and wonderful?

I certainly don't know the answer, and I'm not sure there's an easy explanation for it.  However, lots of people attempt to address the issue in various scientific studies and articles.  Here's one that I found to be an interesting read. 

Here's another good one.

Enjoy!

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic

What's a girl to do?

Two weeks to go of my drawing class, and I can already feel myself talking myself out of pursuing my drawing teacher.  I can hear the voice in my head saying, "nah, he's just being nice to you, it isn't really flirting--you'd just embarrass yourself if you asked him out."  Ugh, why do I talk myself out of it?  I know why--it's because I know that I don't handle rejection well, so I'm terrified of rejection and pretty much avoid it as much as I can.  It's really not a way to live.

On a side note, something I was thinking about today:  what would our dating lives be like if it weren't for social conventions?  That is to say, if we didn't pay any attention to dating "games," like rules about communicating with one another, or the way dating is "supposed to be" or whatever.  I hold myself back on a lot of things in dating--I don't say exactly what I'm thinking because it's not ladylike, or demure or mysterious enough, or because I have too much pride, or I'm afraid of what the response would be.  There's something to be said for manners, but there are times when I wish guys would just tell me what they think, and I could just say what I think without repercussion.  Just some food for thought, I guess.

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic

I LIKE the BARTENDER!!!

I like/love the bartender at Shannon Rose! I took action. We officially met over a lead! I knew those leads are good for something! I filled out my name, phone number, address, and did not check the box to hear more information about Shannon Rose. Instead I created my own box saying I'd like to hear more from the bartender with the glasses.. I gave it back directly to him and he laughed. It turns out I won the contest at the bar! Not the grand prizie yet, but I won a cooler. Did he rig the contest or what? Hopefully I will win the ultimate prize a text or phone call from him... Time will tell!

And to your right is a building called..... excuse me while I barf

I've been hopping around temporary housing a bit lately, and recently relocated myself a bit further away from where I've been living in recent years so I could stay with family.  It's comfortable here, but the only downside is I'm further away from all my friends.  The Disbeliever immediately jumped in and mentioned she knew a guy who is not too far away from where I am now, and suggested we connect on Facebook.

I have no expectations that this would end up being a date, but it seems like when you're dealing with a complete stranger, there is a certain level of manners that should be met.  At least until you get to know a person--then you can be a bit more casual.

This guy didn't say much at all.  The following online conversation took place over the course of a week.

• Him:  Hey how are you? [Disbeliever] told me you just moved to [new area]. Where in [new area] did you move to?
• Me:  Hey there, yeah, I just moved in with my cousin for a while--in [town A], which is sort of near [town B]. She said you were in [new area] too? Somewhere a little closer to the city, like [town C]? Not much out here that I can tell--someone told me about some castle I should go see, but I forgot the name. What else is out here?
• Him:  Hey. Yes I'm I'm [town C]. Been here for 5 yrs. it's pretty nice for a small city. Have u been?
• Me:  Nope, never been to [town C]. I haven't seen much of any of [new area], actually.
• Him:  You should come down to [town C] sometime. I will show you around the area. (###) ###-####
• Me:  Cool, that would be fun. Let me know when is good for you. (###) ###-####

Not a bad start, I was just a little annoyed that it took a week to have such a short conversation.  I was scratching my head a bit over this last bit though, which came in yesterday:

• Him:  I would suggest tonight since I'm free...but I'm also hungover. There was a [town C] SantaCon yesterday...

So, was he suggesting playing tour guide for me while he's hungover?  Or making an excuse for not meeting up on a day we hadn't arranged in the first place (and which would have been last-minute anyway)?  Why tell a complete stranger about being hungover?  We can meet up whenever, I don't really care, but why not just suggest an actual day when your schedule is free, a few days in advance?  Sabrina would not like this ambiguity--suggest a day, hopefully giving me a couple days notice, and set it up!  Why are guys so wishy-washy?

Oh well, it isn't a big deal, and I have other things to worry about.  We'll see what comes of this.

Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic