So, I HAD pretty much given up on Teddy Bear. It just didn't seem to be going anywhere, and I was too nervous to push anything, and my interest wasn't strong enough for me to really lay it all on the line, so I settled into a stance of whatever happens, happens, and I don't care.
Then today got me wondering.
I saw him again at today's studio art session. He mentioned in conversation (can't remember what we all were talking about) that he decided he can only date other artists. Something about it would take one to understand him, I think? I said "well, that sure does narrow down the pool!" Although I guess it might depend on his definition of "artist"--everyone is an artist of some kind, and very few people make a living out of it, but there is a lot of grey area in between.
Anyway, as we were wrapping up, I did take my time putting my stuff away, thinking I might get a few moments with him. No dice--the rest of the group stayed with me chatting it up! Evidently I am the life of the party and no one wants to leave until I do.
So I had my coat on and all my gear in my arms, and had just stepped out the door when Teddy Bear pokes his head out the door and asks if I'm headed home, and convinces me to let him show me around the exhibit that was just going up in the halls around the art school. The art was amazing, although I didn't need an escort or commentary per se, so it did kind of feel like he was making a move. I was eating it up, but I was also hella nervous. I loved it, but it could never really be a private moment, since there were people meandering about here and there around the basement where the school was. Ultimately, we were interrupted and someone stole him away to help with something, so I left.
Maybe I shouldn't have given up? Am I still interested? I didn't think I was, but the amount of nervousness that I felt today might be an indication that I actually still am. Seems like this would be the time for me to do something bold like email him my phone number, but I just don't know if I have the balls to do that.
Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic
I wish I could shake you! You are the only person holding yourself back in this situation!!!! You know he is probably nervous too! Those artists are the sensitive types
ReplyDeleteI know, and of course, this has been on my mind too much for the last week or so. I gotta just lay caution to the wind....
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