Oh man, I'm still processing this one. This one did not feel good at all.
I was turning out to like the Journalist. He had made it quite obvious that he had a thing for me. I've not been more sure about much else in my life. And after our first lunch, I was really starting to like him.
Today we had lunch #2. We took advantage of some gorgeous weather and got cart food and sat on benches outside, which was lovely. We had been chatting about this and that while we got our food. When we sat down, I asked him what he did over the weekend. He had friends visit, blah blah, oh, and he had a really long 4-5 hour date with this girl he's been seeing.
Um...... wha?
He talked about how he drank too much black tea, because the girl was a big conversationalist and the date kept going, but then he couldn't sleep. Then he was saying he'd rather not drink beer because it's too filling.... then on to the guy who had a disorder that by just drinking water and eating bread, he got drunk because his belly made beer.
I was grateful for the change in subject, because even though I smoothly hid my shock and kept up the conversation, that bit about a girlfriend hit me with a ton of bricks. What on Earth? I couldn't possibly have read that wrong.... could I? Did he really just want an office buddy? No way...... Did I somehow miss my chance because in the week it took to schedule our first lunch he had met someone else? Maybe--in this city that's entirely possible. But damn.
It may be stupid, but I'm kind of upset about this. Mad to have missed my chance with a guy I really liked, mad that somehow I might have been waaaaay off on the ole' radar. Mad that ONCE AGAIN I hit a dud. People judge me a lot in many ways--because I'm single I must be focusing on my career, that I'm too bitter and crazy and must be too picky about men. Hearing those things is really hurtful, because if anyone else was dealing with both feeling lonely and dealing with shit like this ALL THE TIME, they'd be crazy, too! I wish the universe would just cut me some slack and give me a break. Just once. I feel like I'm perpetually in purgatory.
:(
Trying to stay positive,
Skeptic
Ugh, I'm sorry! That's a very strange turn of events. It does always seem like the ones with the potential bottom out for some reason, and the ones without won't go away. I feel your pain!
ReplyDeleteYeah, I'm really puzzled. I was telling a girl at work about it yesterday, and she said, "Oh! I know exactly who you're talking about. You didn't read that wrong--he totally singled you out." I can't understate the obviousness that he liked me. So it just makes me even more confused as to why he would say something like that. His way of trying to find out my own dating situation? Sure there's a better way than telling me about his own date....
ReplyDeleteKeep going out to lunch with him... Invent a guy you been seeing...He did say friend though after your first lunch date.. I think he likes you, but the timing is off! Invent the guy your dating. I wonder what his reaction will be...
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